A car in moth balls

Time Place Right???

I'm afraid it becomes a reality when listing life's firsts.  I'm very happy with my progression this past summer in the car.  I was able to get on track in early June and late August and saw great gains in car control, placement and overall speed.  I did swap to R compounds, which has spoiled me, but worked with a couple of really good instructors who helped me pick up serious speed.  I'm starting to learn the subtle rhythms of the car when it is up to full song.  I always had a hard time feeling the car out when running auto cross, and felt as though I was starting over, every time I stepped into the car.  This coupled with the herky jerky inputs cone racing has led me away from tarmac events.  For me it increases bad habits which transfer onto the track.  Unproductive track time is a cancer, as many many hours are spent in preparation and anticipation to head to Milton.  

Back to time and place.....

I had the chance to run with First Settlers, on south course, Track Daze on full and Asphalt Ventures on full but have decided to put the car up until February.  My days are now spent paining rooms, going to birthing classes, and counting days instead of weeks or months.  Doing the internal work before he arrives to better prepare for preparing a human for this universe.  Trying like hell to not buck the change, manage, work and prepare.  

Never before have I been so well supported through change.  Escaping within our own moods and time probably isn't the most constructive route, I am lucky that my partner and true love understands or is willing to try and let me explain myself.

With all these cobwebs of change rattling around upstairs, I decided back in August that the late summer event would be my last of 2008.  I spent almost 4 years building this car for VIR, countless hours of preparation, work, fabrication, frustration to get to the point where I could go play with the big boys.  I can wait a few months when my focus won't be clouded with "should I be here??" types of thoughts.  I would hate to loose the car because I wasn't fully mentally prepared.  I think its the smart move.